Date:	2007-10-09 00:38
Subject:	The Return
Security:	Public
Mood:	relaxed
Music:	Cult of Luna - Arrival

Welp

This is the first time I've logged onto my LJ in FOREEEEEEEVER, and I'd forgotten how many posts I'd made to it. Waaaay more than I remembered.  That said... HELLO LIVEJOURNAL!

Welp.

Sky is clear tonight
Sky is clear tomorrow
A star is out
I reach for one to sparkle in my hand
A star is out
I will not touch you, I am just a man
Sky is clear tonight
Sky is clear tomorrow
And every night I shut my eyes
So I don't have to see the light
Shining so bright
I'll dream about a cloudy sky,
A cloudy sky
I'll dream about a cloudy sky, a cloudy
"man was born to love-
Though often he has sought
Like icarus, to fly too high-
And far too lonely than he ought
To kiss the sun of east and west
And hold the world at his behest-
To hold the terrible power
To whom only gods are blessed-
But me, I am just a man"
And every night I shut my eyes
So I don't have to see the light
Shining so bright
I'll dream about a cloudy sky, a cloudy sky
And every night I shut my eyes
But now I've got them open wide
You've fallen into my hands
And now you're burning me
You're burning me

Date:	2005-12-23 20:27
Subject:	Christmas
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad

I ruined Christmas.

This is the worst thing I've ever done. I feel evil.

I wish I could un-ruin it.

Date:	2005-12-09 03:22
Subject:	SLEEP MADNESS
Security:	Public
Mood:	crazy
Music:	banana banana banana terra cotta

DEAR DIARY

My eyes last closed themselves in sleep at ~ 6 am the day before yesterday.  I awoke at approximately 2:00 pm that day, and have remained awake....

as it always does, the madness has come.
I have been stricken with... SLEEP MADNESS
In the road as i drove, children. BUT WHY WERE THEY PLAYING IN THE ROAD?

And then, poof, nothing.

Haha, poof is a funny word.

XOXOXOXOXOX
Sleep MADNESS!!!!
Edward Rhodes, December 9th, 4021

Taric250: Hi, thanks for the link. Who are you?
Rainbow B1ight: Your mysterious benefactor.
Taric250: Um, thank you?
Rainbow B1ight: Welcome.
Rainbow B1ight: I came across your journal and was suprised by the familiarity of the entry in question.
Rainbow B1ight: And upon reading Carpedeum's again, realization.
Rainbow B1ight: Damned if I know who's copying who, but yours seems a tad more authentic.
Taric250: I don't know who else knows Nate besides Aly, so I guess this is very coincidental.
Taric250: JhordashBytel (12:27:12 PM): oh boy
Taric250 (12:27:22 PM): What the hell is the meaning of this?
JhordashBytel (12:28:02 PM): hmm i believe it started off when my friend said something non-seriously about needing more drama in his life
JhordashBytel (12:28:13 PM): i happened to be reading your post aly had linked to me
JhordashBytel (12:28:20 PM): and i said he should be careful what he wished for
JhordashBytel (12:28:45 PM): and showed him why
JhordashBytel (12:29:25 PM): him being the weird guy that he is, stole the show anyway
JhordashBytel (12:29:44 PM): and then it just got out of hand
Taric250 (12:30:01 PM): Yeah, except you helped.
JhordashBytel (12:30:26 PM): didnt claim not to
Taric250 (12:33:54 PM): Well, I can tell you this much.
Taric250 (12:36:42 PM): It was you that not only suggested the idea, but also contributed to it. So, it would be expected of you to repair this situation, by say, oh writing a substantial comment about everything was a complete fake, then insisting that he write his next journal entry about how it was all a fake and publicly apologize to me. In addition, an apopogy from you would be nice.
JhordashBytel (12:37:46 PM): woah woah in the future let's get our facts straight before we start in on our tyrades
Rainbow B1ight: what
Taric250: I live in Illinois. I was friends with Alysia (sakkie-chan), who's online buddies with Nate (Jhordashbytel) in Virginia, who's friend's with Eddie (carpedeum).
Rainbow B1ight: WHAT A WICKED TANGLED WEB HAS BEEN WOVED
Rainbow B1ight: So how do you know all those guys?
Taric250: No kidding. What really bewilders me is how you know me, considering that that connection is... well, odd enough that you wouldn't think that it would go back and forth.
Rainbow B1ight: Thing is, I DONT know you
Rainbow B1ight: I just know Nate
Taric250: I know Nate... kindof, he came to Illinois once, and I met him.
Taric250: Eddie, never even talked to him
Taric250: So, if you don't know me, then how did you know to IM me with the link, that I had a journal, or even what my screename was?
Rainbow B1ight: when I'm bored I peruse random journals
Rainbow B1ight: I'd seen Eddie's on Nate's friends page, and it stuck out in my mind
Rainbow B1ight: I came across yours during a random perusal
Taric250: Like, link to link to link to link?
Rainbow B1ight: ding ding ding.
Taric250: Wow, so do you live in Virginia?
Rainbow B1ight: Yeah
Taric250: Jeeze... Well, that's my second Christmas present.
Taric250: By the way, everything that I wrote in my journal is true. I actually do have that crazy of a life.
Rainbow B1ight: You sure do have a crazy life
Rainbow B1ight: what was your first christmas present
Taric250: A T-MOBILE SIDEKICK II!!!!
Taric250: OMG, have you seen one of these?!
Taric250: It is...
Taric250: the shiznit.
Rainbow B1ight: bitch I got a color TV wristwatch
Rainbow B1ight: and
Rainbow B1ight: I AM THE ONE WHO MADE THAT INSIDEOUS POST
Rainbow B1ight: AND GUESS WHAT
Rainbow B1ight: YOU'LL NEVER CATCH ME
Rainbow B1ight: MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
Rainbow B1ight: AHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAH
Rainbow B1ight: AHAHAH
Rainbow B1ight: AhAHA
Rainbow B1ight: AHAhahAh]AhAhAa
Rainbow B1ight: ahahahahahahaha
Rainbow B1ight: no seriously if you try I'll slit your fucking throat.

--

ps: i love u! >_

Date:	2004-12-20 14:21
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	cold
Music:	Avenged Sevenfold -- Clairvoyant Disease

Ahhhh, Christmas break. So much has gone on in my life, I'll try to fill you in on what of the details I can:

I lost my tongue piercing while talking on the phone, so Doron pierced it again, and I ended up bleeding so much I went to the hospital! Zoe, my girlfriend I met on americansingles.com, drove me to my mom's, and she went to the hospital with me. Wow, that was a COMPLETE waste of time, since all I had to do was take it out and wait for it to be repierced, and not take anymore Vikoden. Zoe has been awsome. We had threesomes with 2 other guys, Gian and Jason. Gian I met on XY, and after Zoe, he, and I had sex, he blocked my AIM and never talked to me again. WTF? Jason contacted me on the phone from some guy who knew me named "Devander", whoever that is. Zoe and I went over, but I don't think he's as bi as I am. Zoe was had horrible trepidations about seeing Jason, as if he was some serial killer, but it was all cool, and she came 5 times, Jason came 3 times, and I came 0 times. :-( We almost broke up right before going over to his house, but Zoe decided to just convert it to an open relationship, which made me happy. I had sex with three other guys from Manhunt.net and one from Match.com: David, Jeremy, Auturo, and Alen. She also had sex with her ex, but little did I know, she only did it to make me jelous. She's sick and tired of sleeping with all these people, and she wants me all to herself, and I told her that I loved her when she told me that "that part [putting other people ahead of yourseld] just went out the window." I felt something change, but I didn't know what it was. All the while, Doron and I haven't been getting along, and there was a problem with the rent being paid. I gave him $537.50 for the rent, and he said he paid it, but it doesn't add up, and the rent was never recieved. I was about to be evicted from my apartment, and we were charged $120 in late fees. Zoe doesn't like what's going on one bit, and thinks I should leave or find new roomates. I have quite a bit more faith in the ability of people to do good. I drove to my mom's and borrowed $500 and emptied my bank account. So, I paid $1,202.79 in rent, water, sewer, and assorted fees, and I want it back. I have medical bills to pay from last year, which are about $500, and Doron also owes me $412.33. I prayed to God for fiancial stability, among other things, and I hope my demands are granted.

Date:	2004-10-12 22:51
Subject:	Motivation Squadron: Zero Brigade
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed
Music:	Mike Patton -- Peeping Tom Demo 7

I usually like to think that I'm a person who has a lot of worthwhile stuff to say.

Usually.

Thing is, usually I never tend to say anything worthwhile when I'm talking to someone face to face; it's always over the interweb. I want think that my internet eloquence (yeah, I know it's not usually evident in my LJ) could translate fairly well into the real world. Experience, however, has proven that notion to be incorrect.

Twice in the past 48 hours, attempts to convert the ideas swimming around in my head into a form suitable for easy listening pleasure have turned into explosions of sputting idiocy.

The question is, if an idea has no appreciable value when it leaves the confines of one's mind, did it have any to begin with? Or was the value illusory from the get go?

I'm starting to lean towards the latter, which depresses me, because it means that I really AM nothing but a loud obnoxious asshole. shit.

PS: I fukkin HATE vectors.

Date:	2004-10-04 15:52
Subject:	New developments
Security:	Public
Mood:	pensive
Music:	Cradle Of Filth -- Suicide and Other Comforts

Today heralds a new era. For the first time in... well, as long as I can remember, I will be attending each and every class that I am supposed to today. That means that I already went to both my math classes, and, baring some terrible misfortune, I will be attending latin in 1 and 1 half hours. Oh goody goody gumdrops I feel like a whole new man. And that's what I am. Less drugs, more work! Success, here I come.

Also, I went to Charlottesville with THE KRU. We succeded in dragging Nate along, and we went to the Tea Bazaar and got delicious foods teas and a hookah which Nate spiked with SECRET EXTRA PLANT MATERIAL. THat was the first of 2 times I smoked marijuana that day, and I was depressingly non-high for someone who hasn't smoked in a week. I figure this is my body's way of telling me "Dude what are you doing stop fucking smoking pot" so I'm going to be calling it quits untill our upcoming halloween festivities, which may or may not occur.

Anyhoo, after the tea bazaar we all went to Jen and Josiahs where we got all liquored up and watched Hellraiser. I have to say, I really like alcohol now. Me, who said that he would never drink again and actually stuck to it for more than a year. Oh, what have I done? WHAT HAS BECOME OF ME.

oh yeah cool I am a new-hard worker man.

PS: Iron Maiden Rock On hardcore \m/O_o\m/

Date:	2004-10-04 15:25
Subject:	All will perish in the fires of jihad.
Security:	Public
Mood:	productive
Music:	Iron Maiden -- Heaven Can Wait

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Date:	2004-08-06 06:56
Subject:	Doom 3
Security:	Public
Mood:	scared

Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps will eat me Can't sleep... imps wi--

They did in fact catch me.

My brilliant plan was to run around the con all day, just going into the video rooms and whatnot, without a badge. I would get to reap most of the benefits of going to Otakon, for none of the money. It worked perfectly until towards closing time on saturday, when the fact that I was badgeless was noticed by one of the staff members. I was kicked out of the con, but not before I got to see the secret Special Ops HQ, complete with all of the confiscated "Fuck Signs" signs, and a 100 million billion pound jar of cheeseballs.

(censored by order of a third party)

All I want is for me and those around me to be happy. they never are.

okay, apparently harassing me on LJ isn't enough. Now he's fucking attacking me on AIM and sending all these fucking nasty as shit pictues coupled with his stupid fucking comicbook nerd D and D bullshit SHUT UP YOUR A FUCKING NERD I HATE YOU JESUS CHRIST LEAVE ME ALONE

Date:	2004-07-09 16:38
Subject:	Okay
Security:	Public
Mood:	enraged

Alright, I guess those of you wondering what all the drama is about deserve a bit of backstory to explain what's going on right now. On my first day at JMU, my rather gleeful roommate called up some guy who was his friend from school and the only person he knew on campus. Well, the guy seemed like a dick from the beginning, like, the first thing he did was ask my roommate if I like dick.

Now, my roommate is a pretty cool guy and all, and this guy is just mean to him all the time. I mean, doron sometimes does somethings a little "off" but he doesn't deserve the kind of shit that this guy gives him. Like, he always takes his money and pretends to set him on fire to scare him and stuff. so anyway, the point I'm trying to make here as this guy was a huge asshole from the minute I met him.

Anyway, after a while the guy started hanging around me, even though I tried to make it clear (as politely as possible of course) that I didn't want to be around him. Either he didn't get the message or he was too starved for companionship to let go of the only cool person willing to tolerate him, but either way, he was at my dorm almost constantly, fucking smoking crack or whatever he does. anyway, after a while, I guess I kinda hated his fucking guts a little less and have been sorta nice to him.

Well, flash forward to the present day, and this guy decides to repay all the nice shit I've done for him by fucking coming into my journal's comments page and BEING A FUCKING COCK HOLE AND FUCKING HARASSING ME.

Jesus christ why do people have to be such assholes?

Or are you happening to me? WELCOME TO ROOKERS ISLAND, MAGGOT

Tomorrow I take finals in Lifespan Human Development, and Psychology. Am I looking forward to them? YOU BET.

Date:	2004-06-07 18:21
Subject:	:(
Security:	Public
Mood:	angry

hay guys. today, my parrents told me that i couldnt go to the big show. :(( (((( ya i know that it sucks but somehow i think that im going to be alright. mike and tom said that tehy will take pictures and i got jules to record it for me. you no it really can be hard sumtimes annd when it gets hard for me i usually try to relaz by listening 2 sum music. i like slipknot becuz i can really identifty with the kind of stuff thatt they say in theyre music like in the song Purity when they say "Put me in a homemade cellar
Put me in a hole for shelter
Someone hear me please, all I see is hate
I can hardly breathe, and I can hardly take it" they really seem to kno just how i feel likne now wen my parents and i are fighting but with music ic an tell it probably will just be alright. im still mad athtem anyway though >:|

peace
--~~~==++Eddie++==~~~--

If there is someone on your friends list you would love to have an epic, sweaty, damn near legendary 12 hour fuckathon with, post this same exact sentence in your journal.

Date:	2004-06-02 18:11
Subject:	TODAY IS A GOOD DAY
Security:	Public
Mood:	touched

TODAY I DIDNT EVEN HAFTA USE MY AK
I GOTTA SAY IT WAS A GOOD DAY

PS:
Mission objective: Put off studying and paper writing.
Status: Inconclusive.

Summer school bores me.
The post man floors me!
I enjoy biscuits and jolly fun wine!

My god... POGS FUCKING KICK ASS.